So when i sit down at this computer screen, i start scrolling through my play lists, im trynna find the perfect song to play that will maybe get my thoughts goin and i just cant seem to come up with anything. But the crazy part is my mind is going a billion miles per hour, and i cant seem to make sense of anything that Im thinkin about.....
These past few weeks have flown by so fast with very little sleep and alot of tossing and turning. There has been a lot of wakin up and I just find myself staring at the ceiling...THINKING. Im thinking about everything but SLEEPing.
But there is this person that I always end up thinking about, but then there is this other person that i am thinking about, and then there is another thing that im thinking about that leads me back to thinking about a person,And the annoying cirlce just keeps goin round and round. I dont know how to make these kinda nights stop.
Its really starting to feel like i have beens leeping at night all, and its really just getting old.I wake up feeling so unrested, grumpy, moody, and my body is starting to ache. I keep thinking that maybe i need some affection from another body and that will make me feel soo much better then I do, but then I start thinkin that maybe Im lookin for a quick fix, when i know that what ive been feelin for a month cant be fixed just by a single touch from a certain person.
Maybe what I need to do, is start digging deeper into my thoughts, and figure out what my main frustration is.I need to start writing down every emotion that comes to mind, every dream I wake up from, and so on.Im gonna try my best but i certainly need to get to the bottom of these restless nights and these constant thoughts that im always having. Because if I dont, I know that im gonna end up driving myself crazy!!! This might be hard when my mind is running a 1 Billion MPH
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